Thinking of Changing

urm..i don't know why n how it comes..but lately..i've been thinking bout it for several time..maybe it's the time for me to seek n to start taking an action to change.. sometimes i feel that i couldn't go anywhere or get what i want with my lifestyle rite now.. this thought has been disturbing me n make me think a lot.. how to change?? , what to change?? why must change?? , n sometimes i don't know what i need to do..i really hope that i can get some advice or way from people around me..i mean my family, my fren, n anybody that i know..coz there where i gain and get my strength..from people around me..but the fact is i'm afraid to ask them..i dunno why must i feel like that..but..that's what i feel..i think bcoz of me character..i can say im a good listener cuz i like to listen to others probs n help them to solve it..but i rarely share my probs to other unless selected person coz i dont want to burden then with my probs n willing to handle it alone..the selected person here refers to somebody that i trust n i think i can share my probs with him/her..my instinct select them..n once it says that person can hear u, n it never get wrong..coz it hard for me to put a trust on a person mostly in sharing probs.. thats y not much people r selected.. n i also dunno what im crapping rite now..maybe just tryin to make myself calm n reduce the burden that i feel..hope so..n hope that i can change..coz i really wanna change.. urm.. i think i should end this bored entry here before i write more ridiculous thing.. 

to readers:don't be mad at  me..it is just one of the way for me to express what i feel n to release my tension a bit..i think thats all.. smile always.. :) don't let ur probs or sadness take away ur happiness..coz everybody deserve to feel happy..

~JaLaN-JaLaN KuaLa LuMPuR~ *episod 1*

Ya..aku pon da kehabisan idea nk tulis ape..jd entry aku kli ni aku pon nk cite la sal akunyer  JJKL pas final exam yg lalu..huhu..org lain da abes final..sume pakat2 balek umah..aku sorg je dok tsdai lg kt KL ni*bg yg umah dia bkn skitar KL or S'gor la tp nk awt cmne kan..klu blek umah pon xtau gak nk wat ape..melangut gak..jd aku pon amek kptusan la nk stay dlu sblum blek ke KULIM..huhu..tp aku dok umah paklong aku kt Klang la..*xda la KL sgt..huhu.. umah dia agk jauh ke dalam n agak ssh nk kuar ke mner2..jd klu nk kuar tu aku tpkse la tmpg jiran2 yg nk pegi keje or soh paklong aku yg anta ke bus stop..hehe..tp aku nyer KEMBARA*kembara la sgt tu bmula sblum tu lagi..xsilap aku 011010..just few days pas final..ari Jumaat..ari tu la aku nk kne setel mcm2 dlu sblum gerak ke KL..nk kne gi HEP lak dlu*ada hal sket tp bkn disiplin yer..hehe then aku n kwan aku yg BERNAMA Zulhilmi Salleh pon gerak la ke KL around 9 am cmtu la..aku bkn pe..sje nk tgk cmne KL ni sbb slme 1 sem aku dok kt UiTM Shah Alam..xbyk tmpt kt KL yg aku da explore..asyik2 pegi tmpt yg aku da penah pegi..agak bohsan la kan ?? heehe.. jd aku pon plan nk ke tmpt yg aku ta penah pegi.. tp aku dgn Zul nk head ke tmpt yg bbza..*shopping mall la.. tp ttp trun kt KL sentral same2..then smpai sne,kmi pon bwk haluan masing2..dia dgn membe dia n aku lak dgn Anis Amira..then aku plan la dgn AA nk ke mana..sbb dia pon time tu tgk excited binti teruja nk tgk citer MAGIKA an..aku follow je..tny aku nk ke mana , mmg aku jwb mne2 pon xpe la kan..*hehe..jgn mara.. bkn ape tp almaklum la..aku bknnyer tau sgt KL ni..stgi klu soh aku lead ssat lak..ssh nnti..*huhu..cam alsn jer*  then kitorg*kmi bdua la* decide gi la Mid an..aku pon agk happy la kan sbb seumo idup aku xpenah lg rmbut aku ggur kt citu*mksudnyer xpenah pegi la.. jd aku pon tbe2 agk excited an nk tgk cmne..sbb org kter Mid tu lg besar drpd TS*zul pegi situ* nk gak aku rasai besor mne Mid tu..huhu..n tcpai la gak cita2 aku nk ke Mid..*setelah skian lme mmndam hasrat..smpai sna, aku n AA pon head la ke tmpt wayang..nk bli tiket dlu..sbb nk dpat tket plg awl,so bleh abes awl..sbb aku pon nk gi semayang Jumaat lagi..tp dpendekkan citer*tp bkn dsngajakan..sumpa* xsmpat gak aku nk gi semayang*sedey aku*..tp aku xda la slhkan spe2..sbb da keliling Mid tu kmi pusing cri masjid..*bkn pusing dalam Mid..tp dluarnyer..xjmpe n then ari lak nk hujan n cuaca gelap gler + zul kter nk dtg kt aku*nk dtg Mid la.. then aku kte semayang zohor jela nmpk gyer nyer..aroung 2 pm cmtu zul smpai dgn membe dia tu..pastu aku ajk la Zul gi Zohor lu..n biakan membe dia tu dgn AA *sbb mmbe dia tu pmuan gak.jd xpe la..xda la AA or membe Zul tu sorg2 je.. then abes solat kitorg gi mkn sme2..n then time mkn tu mmbe Zul tu kter dia nk gerak awl..xleh nk wat pape la..tggl la Aku,Zul n AA.. then kitorg gi la men boling..time kt boling tu,nseb bek la aku bwak student card aku,dpt la skit diskaun utk sume..hehe *hero of the day tu*huhu.. then pas boling tu kitorg pon nk gerak balek*around 6.30 cmtu.. n kbtulan time tu time org abes keje..KL..tau jela kan..msti rmai org pnye*kitorg nk nek KTM ke KL sentral..n wktu tu mmg giler2 pnyer rmai org..last2 aku ngan Zul decide xya nek lagi..bia AA sorg je naek dlu...tgk2 dia pon xdpt nek2..n dia mmg in rush nk blek..then tpkse la wat kptusan*decision lg..hehe* leburkan jer tket KTM tu n gi KL sentral nek tksi..sbb klu tggu kompem lmbt..jd kitorg pth blek n nek tksi..tmbh la expenses lg..tp xpe la..nk wat cmner..da tpkse..AA nk kne blek cpt*almaklum la pmpuan..xkn nk blek lewat mlm kot..bhya + xelok..* nseb bek smpt gak smpe KL sentral sblum wktunya n AA manage utk blek on time.. Alhamdulillah la sumenyer bjln lncr wlupon ada bbrpa insiden yg tak diingini*jgn fikir negatif lak yer* blku..
AA head ke umah dia n aku dan Zul head blek UiTM sbb kmi bdua mmg stay smpe last day bleh stay kt UiTM tu..syg bilik la katakan.. haha.. yg AA pas final tu da blek..erm..rsenyer tu jer kot utk entry kli ni.. tggu dia next episode yer..sekian.. Assalamualaikum kepada yg membaca..

 

antara aksi yg sempat dirakamkan..hehe..aksi juara ni..jgn main2..from Anis Amira.

yang ni plak Zulhilmi Salleh..encem kot dia wktu tu..haha..stylo gler..hehe..

p/s:jgn mara yer sal yg bwah ni..

Khairul Hazwan Rashid a.k.a Mr.KuLiM a.k.a Kay
P1108
LWPOIK
UiTM Shah Alam

Nak Cakap Pasai Apa?? Pa Lagi.. MUET la.. :)

fuhh..(aku menghela nafas panjang).. Alhamdulillah.. akhirnya aku berjaya juga mengharungi sesi ujian BERCAKAP BI td.. agak lega la aku la ni..mmg bgun2 pagi tadi..otak aku teruih melayang pkiaq pasai MUET tu.. da la aku dapat sesi 1..kna bgn awai plak tu.. da la aku ni kdg2 baloq skit nk bgn awai2..*huuhu.. dalam jadual tulih pukui 7.30 start.. tp aku 7.10 ada kat rumah lagi.. dah la nk kna pi hntaq adek pi skolah dulu..mmg kalut la aku wktu tu.. haha..tp naseb baik sempat smpai sblum wktunya.. smpai2 situ aku bru sdaq yg aku xbawak pa pon alat2 yg patot..mmg aku kata.. *pi dah aku ni..camna nk jawab satgi..pa pon xdak..ghetaih xdak..pensel pa pon xdak..mmg punggah* haha.. aku da kalut da..nk pi bli,nk kna lintaih jln plak..mls la aku..aku kata"lantak pi la..guna otak sudehh" huhu*bajet hebat.. msuk2 skola tu*SMK Sultan Badlishah* da aku blur plak..kt mna la plak tmpt nk test ni..naseb baik ada candidate laen dkt2 situ..aku pon follow depa la..klau dak aku rasa tah kemana hala aku sesat dalam skolah tu.. hehe..smpai2 aku jmpak membe skolah rndh aku dulu..*dlm hti kata mmg best la kan ada geng.. huhu.. smbg2 sat dlu kt luar bilik test tu..paih tu xdan brapa mnit examiner panggey msuk..bilik tu ada dua tingkat..examiner tu bwak kami suma nek atas..sbb kt bwah tu yg kmi akn ditest.. huhu..smpai atas..examiner tu soh la kami sain attendance dlu..*macam wktu lecture la plak..kih3.. setel suma..dia bhgikan grup plak..aku dpat grup ke 3..mula2 igt relaks la..tp rupa2nya..jenoh.. hah..bkn  jenoh pa..nk tggu tu..pnya la lma..aku smpai cemuih..membe aku tu smpai ttidoq sat.. haha..mmg lawak..

Ok.. tiba giliran aku pnye grup..aku org 1st skali trun*bajet cemerlang+ready habeh la ni.. haha.. tp smpai kt tgga aku tggu sat grupmate aku hat laen..bkn pa..tkut satgi spa trun dulu dia bgi candidate A..malaih aku.. haha..smpai kt ruangan discussion tu..examiner pon bhgi la task masing2..nseb bek aku dapat candidate C.. relaks sket..tu pon tgk2 soalan aku dah plek..awat aku pnya xda individual task..rpa2nya aku salah tgk..tu 2nd task..hat 1st pnya mka surat lagi 1..aku dah sgan dah wktu tu..keh3..mmg bruntung calon2 pada hari itu..examiner dia baik..mmg xtgas lnsg*tp mrkh xtau la tgas ka dak..huhu mula2 sesi berkenalan*bkn pa sgt pon..skit2 ja.. huhu. setel hat tu..dia tny la ada dak apa2 yg xpaham dgn soalan..dah suma kata xdak..dia pon start la cam besa..potpet3...setel suma..pas tu proceed pi discussion lak..mai tang ni hat yg mat ngot skit..grupmate aku tu siap bleh tanya sapa nk kna stat dulu..mgkin sbb depa xblajaq kot..xpa la aku kata..las2 aku yg stat dulu..pastu buleh  pulak suma sokong bnda yg sama...dah tu..suma xtau nk smbang pa..aku pon da habeh idea..nseb baik la aku bckp gak smpai la examiner tu soh benti..aku la wat conclusion n sdprstujui oleh yg lain*wluopn aku gna poin org lain.. hehe bantai ya.. habeh2 tu..mmg aku lega xkira..mmg agak relief la.. n sbnrnya xda la ssh mna pon*bkn blagak naa.. wlupon at 1st task dia ssh nk paham... *tp harap2 cra aku elaborate btoi la.hmm.. rasanya xdak pa dah kot.. klu rasa borink baca entry ni.. xyah baca dah.. skali ckup.. HAHA :p
Assalamualaikum kpd ssiapa yg mmbca..

First MUET test!! HAHA

Fuhh.. for this entry..I have to write full English because tomorrow I am going to have a MUET speaking test..although it is not really inter-related but I believe it can help me al little bit*better than not rite??huhu I'm quite nervous at the moment I write this entry because my head keep thinking about how is the test going to be..is it easy or hard..actually not only nervous, a little bit excited and curious comes and make me thinking a lot about it..I really hope that tomorrow will be a glorious day for me, hopefully it will be an easy test for me to get through..I'm not really good in English and that's what makes me a little bit scared..once again I'm asking myself,how it going to be tomorrow..while everybody who is going to take it keep practicing n preparing, I'm not joining them..instead, I go out and head to CC and playing game*is that the way to face a test??haha ..but never mind, my principle that is CONFIDENCE keep me strong to face it..I know and I'm sure that I can do it..I believe that I can compete with other candidates and get a high marks*insya-Allah and hit my target to get at least BAND 5 for the overall MUET test..tomorrow is just the beginning.. there are 3 papers more still waiting for me..seems like a long journey yet huh.. haha.. but keep calm and confidence..it will really help..trust me..urm..to anybody who manage to read my post,please pray for my success, not only for my speaking, but the overall yaa..I'll pray for you to.. :)

so urm..what can I do huh..I don't have partner to practice with..so I guess I have to be like a crazy man that talking with himself alone.. haha.. oh no..the syndrome has come..what is it?? the craziness of course..a normal sickness that usually attacks a student who is going to face a test or an exam..and I'm the one of it..but please don't be mad at me..I just expressing my feeling to reduce and avoid tensions..so that I can feel more relief and make my head feel lighter..*is it right??please correct me i not.. ;)

urm..not much to say about..just about the MUET tomorrow*I think.. huhu.. so I think that's all from me..hopefully none of the readers get hurt with my words.. Assalamualaikum..*the only exception.. ;)

Erm..aku pon tatau mau tulis apa..suka ati aku ja lah..

Erm..sebenarnya..banyak perkara menarik yg nak aku ceritakan..tp ntah la..mgkin aku ni kdg2 cepat lupa kot..aku pon da lupa sebahagian daripada cerita-cerita menarik itu..maklum lah..mnusia..mna bleh lari daripada sifat lupa..tp entahlah..ya,mgkin blog aku ni xsehebat blog2 org lain..tp xpa..sbb tujuan aku buat blog ni pon bkn utk aku berpolitik ka,berpopulariti ka..tp hanya untuk suka-suka..sbb hari2 ygkita lalui xsmuanya indah..jd kt blog ni lah tmpt utk aku luahkan perasaan aku..aku mgkin seorang pendengar yg bagus tp aku bukan seorang peluah yg bagus..* aku rasa la walupon kdg2 aku bleh je meluahkan mksud aku kalau aku ada masalah la..bagi aku,aku rela menanggung masalah org lain *dgn cara dgr masalah depa n kurangkan masalah depa tu tp aku xmau masalah aku mmbebani org lain..sbb tu la aku lebih suka kalau aku sndri yg tau masalah aku..*kalau berat sgt la tp kdg2 aku wat 'exception' gak la dgn bgtau org lain..tp aku xbgi tau suma org..aku ni selective..aku akan observe n nilai dulu character2 org yg aku kenai.. klu aku rasa ssuai,maka org tu la aku pilih..aku ni jenis ssh nk pilih,tp bila aku dah pilih mknanya itu la dia pilihan aku..n sapa2 yg aku pilih tu maknanya dia aku mmg pcya kt dia n yakin dgn kemampuan dia..sbb nk pilih tu pon ikut naluri aku gak..dan slalunya naluri aku tak menipu..dia tau apa yg aku nak..dan pilhan lain utk redakan masalah aku = ni lah dianya..blog aku ni..sbb tu la aku tak kesah blog aku ni rmai org follow ka dak.. n org nk baca ka dak.."I dont Care".. jnji aku dapat laksanakan matlamat aku..xtau la..aku pon macam manusia lain..kadang gembira..kadang2 dak.. dan blog ni la tempat aku luahkan perasaan..kadang2 aku terfikir,ada bagusnya jgak luah masalah pada bnda yg xbleh bls..sbb klu luah kt yg bleh balas,klu yg bleh bg 'good advice' tu ok la..tp klu yg nk paku ya..kata kita feeling lebih2 wat pa kan..bek jd org gila sat..cakap sorang2..daripada cakap dgn org yg xpaham kita..ermm..ntah la..aku pon xtau apa yg aku dok merepek panjang2 ni..tp biaq pi la kt aku..peduli apa aku org nk kata apa..jnji aku xkacao depa dah..dah la..aku pon xtau lagi nk tulih apa..nnti2 la aku update lain..insya-Allah.. sekian..